hi.

Monday, August 2, 2010 at5:34 PM

hi

i moved again.

catch me at www.insanitykeepsmealive.wordpress.com.
see you there.
HEES

:(

Tuesday, June 29, 2010 at9:06 PM

i need more time.
i will update my blog soon.
i hope. :(

till death do us part.

Thursday, June 10, 2010 at12:20 PM

whatever happens to till death do us part?
whatever happens to loving you till eternity?
whatever happens to loving you and only you?
whatever happens to my love for you is deeper than the ocean?
ALL BULLSHIT.
when love becomes too near for you, within reach, you doubt it's genuine purpose.
when love runs away from you, you longed for it.
i don't doubt the purpose of love.
no i don't.
but i really don't know the purpose of having two person to get together and in the end betrayal, quarrels, arguements happens all night long.
i don't mean every single day.
i don't longed for love anymore.
i longed for companionship.
s, i decided to let go.
because i know nothing is going to happen between both of us.
i don't know what you are thinking and i guess i never will.
so i just decided to let go of you and put you right behind me.



on a lighter note, i've been catching up on 偷心大圣P.S.男!
it's like super uber nicey!
mommy finally called back from australia after ~!@#$%^&*()_+ days.
i missed her so so much.
yes i know freedom is priceless, but her presence is also priceless.
now home not like home!
like pig sty!
anyways last clubbing session this sat.
i'm pondering about going back to ph. or should i just go other clubs?!
just received a good news!
tomoro going surge 2 for free!
beach party!
i'm in for some WOOPSIE DOOSIE!
hahahahaha.



AND I SERIOUSLY WANNA GO FOR SOME HOLIDAYS LIKE SOON!
knn.
sick of singapooooooore liao!

been busy.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010 at2:28 PM

yes i've been busy with my life.
going school.
going out with the loves.
and of course doing my beloved assignments and reports.
my 20th birthday has come to an end.
not a very big one.
but definitely a very memorable one.
it consists of tears and more tears seriously.
had hoshi buffet with my family on sun.
went clubbing on 26/05 with the girls.
they count down to my birthday with me.
got high and crazy definitely.
27/05 : my plans were cancelled unexpectedly. called up my cousin and asked him to go out with me. didn't expected him to be free though. but thank god he was there for me. seriously if it wasn't for him, i'll be spending my birthday alone. yes. that's fucked up i know. i forced him to watch shrek with me. and he gave in to me as usual. i remembered i told him: " thanks for being there. i know it was pretty last minute and thanks for the anna sui surprise." he replied : " u are the only cousin i am close with, if i don't sayang you den sayang who?" i teared after hearing that. weak uh? and after that i forgave him for everything that happened. yes.
28/05: i can't remember what i did. i only remembered about a car accident and dim sum at geylang.
29/05: they wanted to do a make up celebration for me. but i thought it was redundant because my birthday is already over. and i had plans. so sorry girls.
went to ph at night, saw all my loves after so long. thanks for coming down everyone. seriously. i was mad happy. smile till cannot see my eyes can? but i'm also mad tired. keep on leaning on my cousin's shoulder for support. the darlings bought me a cake to surprise me. mad surprised can. i never expected it lor. thanks alot. you all really make me mad touched.
31/05: i've received news that my great grandmother passed away.
many problems start to surfaced up.
seriously i don't know how long can i hang on for.

if only.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010 at10:59 PM

if making a fool out of myself brings a smile to ur face, i don't mind being a clown.
if being there for you telling you jokes that doesn't even make sense makes u forget about her, i don't mind telling you 1001 jokes.
if time could just stop right there, i bet i'll be the most happiest woman on earth.
if only you could tell me how u feel and if feelings are reciprocating.
What if there's only if.
i still remembered when we first met, it was your birthday.
i didn't really remember how u look like neither was i interested in anything there.
i went for the event not even knowing it's ur special day.
i like the way you protected me when we were at the dancefloor.
i like the way you hugged me tightly as if that moment only stopped for both of us.
i like the way you whispered to me, " will you be my partner for today? although this is like the first time seeing you."
i smiled at the way people make you drunk.
i smiled at your foolish actions.
i smiled when you squat right outside the toilet trying to regain your consciousness.
despite being drunk, you still asked am i okay.
but happiness was short-lived.
we stop contacting since then.
dropping random comments on your facebook.
slowly i started to have vague memories of you.
and why did this cycle happen again?
we stop contacting each other and life was getting on alrights what.
why did you came back into my life when i thought i totally forgotten about you?
when you told me, you were feeling emo, i asked you down to ph hoping to make you feel better.
i think i did. like slightly?
when i got to know that you were thinking about your ex-gf that's why u were feeling emo,i was numb.
no idea why though.
but at least that night i brought smiles to your face.
i felt contented.
when you asked me, why a nice girl like you is still single?
and i answered, "because i haven gotten the right one? no feelings for anyone yet."
but deep in my heart i wanted to say : " cos i was waiting for you."
when i was ranting to you about the bitches on the podium, you asked me to come down to the dancefloor..
i replied: " no handsomes below to dance with leh"
and yet u said " i no handsome enough sibo?"
instantly that brought a smile to my face.
i hate how a simple text from you can make me smile.
i hate how we are so close yet so like stranger.
i am so gonna forget you.
from this moment on.
yes, and i'm not gonna be emo anymore!

a series of unfortunate event.

Friday, April 30, 2010 at11:07 PM

as the above describes.
sigh :(
a series of unfortunate event followed me throughout the week.

first, while doing my practical ( fixing engine and stuff), i slipped and hit the engine. in the end i was gifted with a BIG BRUISE on my thigh. the size of a char siew bao i guess. and a 50 cent big blue black on my shin. oh boy. that's not the end yet!

then when i got home. i was complaining to my mom and dad about my day and the bruises. my dad got real furious that i didn't take care of myself. hahaha. oh well. then after which, while i was separating the leaves of the strawberry from the strawberry, my dad dropped a plate. the plate (in slow motion) hit the marble sink and broke into two, that's not the end. half of the broken part landed in the sink and the other half apparently continue to drop and landed on my toe. UGH. close shave. my dad kicked it away while it's dropping to reduce the gravitational force but too late it still landed on me. .__.

right after that, i was walking back to my room and then i kicked into the ironing board. JUST MY LUCK.

JUST WHEN I THOUGHT EVERYTHING ENDED WELL ON MONDAY.
FRIDAY was the worst!
i got locked inside my own room.
FML.
the lock somehow got stuck and i can't go how.
and this is how i missed watching ironman2.
FML.

oh well. on a brighter side! 坏的不去，好的不来。：）

Despo

Monday, April 26, 2010 at9:11 PM

Are u seriously so desperate for man?
Throwing urself at every man that shows interest in u?
Seriously u are so fucking cheap that I don't even feel like bothering bout u.
Go ahead.
Kiss every guy u want.
Hug and hold hands!
Who cares anyway?
Ok just a random angry rant :@