if only.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 at10:59 PM
if making a fool out of myself brings a smile to ur face, i don't mind being a clown.
if being there for you telling you jokes that doesn't even make sense makes u forget about her, i don't mind telling you 1001 jokes.
if time could just stop right there, i bet i'll be the most happiest woman on earth.
if only you could tell me how u feel and if feelings are reciprocating.
What if there's only if.
i still remembered when we first met, it was your birthday.
i didn't really remember how u look like neither was i interested in anything there.
i went for the event not even knowing it's ur special day.
i like the way you protected me when we were at the dancefloor.
i like the way you hugged me tightly as if that moment only stopped for both of us.
i like the way you whispered to me, " will you be my partner for today? although this is like the first time seeing you."
i smiled at the way people make you drunk.
i smiled at your foolish actions.
i smiled when you squat right outside the toilet trying to regain your consciousness.
despite being drunk, you still asked am i okay.
but happiness was short-lived.
we stop contacting since then.
dropping random comments on your facebook.
slowly i started to have vague memories of you.
and why did this cycle happen again?
we stop contacting each other and life was getting on alrights what.
why did you came back into my life when i thought i totally forgotten about you?
when you told me, you were feeling emo, i asked you down to ph hoping to make you feel better.
i think i did. like slightly?
when i got to know that you were thinking about your ex-gf that's why u were feeling emo,i was numb.
no idea why though.
but at least that night i brought smiles to your face.
i felt contented.
when you asked me, why a nice girl like you is still single?
and i answered, "because i haven gotten the right one? no feelings for anyone yet."
but deep in my heart i wanted to say : " cos i was waiting for you."
when i was ranting to you about the bitches on the podium, you asked me to come down to the dancefloor..
i replied: " no handsomes below to dance with leh"
and yet u said " i no handsome enough sibo?"
instantly that brought a smile to my face.
i hate how a simple text from you can make me smile.
i hate how we are so close yet so like stranger.
i am so gonna forget you.
from this moment on.
yes, and i'm not gonna be emo anymore!
